29/42; 10/52

Well I got the confirmation today that I am in fact Stage 4 Melanoma. My biopsy was positive for Melanoma but guess what......the military screwed up again. They screwed up so bad that I have to go and get another biopsy done. Great, I mean I had such an awesome experience getting stabbed the last time that I want to do it again! Yay! I called my doc around 2 today since he didn't call me and I asked him what's going on. Long story short he tells me that 90% of what they took was healthy liver tissue and only 10% was abnormal. 90%! Are you kidding me?! I literally wanted to take my combat boot and shove it through a wall at this point. How much more of a ratard can you be? It's your job day in and day out to do operations like these and you mess up by 90%? Wow I don't know about everyone else but for me one of two things would happen: 1. I'D KILL SOMEONE (I work with high voltage), or 2. I'D GET FIRED! So anyways I should be in this week to get another one even though I'm still sore from the last. Oh and I definitely asked to get sent out on town. No more military.

http://media.crossfit.com/cf-video/09Games_CyndiFrieling_Deadlift.mov

The woman is this video is Cyndi. She is one of the females I competed with at the Games. I just wanted to show everyone how impressive this is. To see a crossfit woman that isn't like 185lbs+ lift 375 is amazing! Let alone any crossfit woman. She is my inspiration to lift more.

Another bummer thing that happened today is my leg is really bothering me I think I'm going to probably just take the rest of this week off. It's very swollen. I was trying to think what I did but I don't know because it was hurting Sunday morning before I worked out and I didn't work out Sat. Oh well on to my WOD:

A1. Snatch Deadlift 41x1; 4-6 x 5; rest 120sec b/t sets

A2. Bar Dips 30x2; 4-6 x 5; rest 120sec b/t sets(add weight if complete 6)

B1. AMRAP Knees to Elbows x 3; rest 120sec b/t sets

B2. AMRAP Push-ups x 3; rest 120sec b/t sets

A1. 95, 125, 150, 165, 185

A2. BW, 5, 10, 15, 20

B1. DNF

B2. 26,DNF, DNF

I still had about another 15lbs on the deadlift but didn't want to push to hard with the leg. The bar dips I wished I would of done 25lbs but happy with 20. The knees to elbows I couldn't do because it hurts to lift my leg and the push-ups hurt as well by putting pressure on it. Hopefully I can make all this up next week. :) :0 :)>

28/42;9/52

Today has been a good day for me. I went to bed early last night so had plenty of energy this morning to go to the gym. Colin didn't plan this week out yet so I made sure it was fine if I did the OPT WOD today because every chance I get I want to work my lungs. Well I definitely lost them so hopefully Colin will give me a good metcon once or twice a week. After the gym my next big event was church. The pastor had an awesome message today. I was so glued into what he was saying I don't know if I even blinked or took a breath. Church always rejuvenates me for the tear down that I receive during the week.

http://westside-barbell.com/westside-articles/articles2008/lowerback_june08.pdf

Here is my WOD:

15,12,9,6,3

Power Snatch 65lbs

Burpees

Time-6:31

I am a bit disappointed with this time. I wanted to break 6 minutes but my lungs have lost some of their power because I've been doing nothing but strength and form work which is good but a bummer because my lungs were the hardest thing for me to work up as an athlete. I will be back though. I looked at the comments and I still beat all the females closest one was about 20sec behind but it wasn't my goal. Did the burpees unbroken and only broke 12 and 9 on the snatch so not to bad.

27/42; 8/52

There's Huff and Jaala:)

Here is a good video of Blair. I worked out with Blair a couple times leading up to the Games. He's an awesome competitor and this WOD looks brutal. Plus I love how he did the video and the song he put in it:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9pteKL06_5s

Well today is a rest day for me.I'm going over to a friends' house in a bit for another Thanksgiving meal with a ton of people. Hope I'm up for it. Talked with the Nautropath Doc today and he gave me a bunch of things to look up, advice, and a couple other things to change or add into what I'm doing now. He told me not to have fear because so many people are beating cancer the way we are doing today and plus it will bring your immune system down. He also said everyone is battling cancer because you are either the star in the movie or you know someone in your life that will have to deal with it. 50% chance. 1 out of 2 people will have to deal with cancer in their life. Those are crappy odds. Hmmm so what about me? This is number 3 for me, guess I better be a cat because they got 9 lives. Hehe! Hope everyone has a beautiful Saturday.

26/42; 7/52

If children have the ability to ignore all odds

and percentages, then maybe we can all

learn from them. When you think about it,

what other choice is there but to hope? We

have two options, medically and emotionally:

give up, or Fight Like Hell.

Lance Armstrong

I found this quote today and it really fits what I'm going through so wanted to share the

awesome words of wisdom with everyone.

Well finally getting used to this diet. I feel like blah all the time but at least I'm in the swing of it. Hopefully it will make a difference. No doctors called today. Monday I should here about results from the biopsy and the Nautropath Doc is going to call me tomorrow morning. I will keep you posted.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1nYx8iX9oX8

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rgH_ZoMOht8

I don't usually post videos like these but wanted to change things up a bit. The first one is a really drunk guy. I don't drink anymore and I think this is hilarious. I can't believe how drunk people get and they want to go buy more alcohol. Idiot. The second one is mostly for someone that does Crossfit. Sorry for the swearing, I don't like to hear it either. Here is my WOD:

Shoulder Press 83% 1RM 5,5,5,5,5; rest 180sec b/t sets

+

AMRAP 5 minutes rope climb

4F,5F,5,4F,3F

7 rope climbs 16ft

I felt defeated today doing those shoulder presses. I don't think I've ever failed that much but then again I think it might of just been to many reps. I tried though that's all I can do. Previous 1RM 120, 83% is 99.6, used 100lbs. The rope climbs got tough real quick. I wore the wrong shoes so I was sliding all over the place but still got 7 so happy with that. I'm so happy it's the weekend. Oh and I finally get my satellite set up tomorrow, yay!

25/42; 6/52

Yay! Happy Turkey Day:) I hope everyone stuffed their face. I actually took some time away from all the cancer stuff and spent it with some friends and we watched a movie after all the food. It a nice change of pace. Well OPT emailed me today and gave me his doctors email. I emailed him and we are going to talk tomorrow. Hopefully he can offer some good advice. His name is Jeoff. Here is another article from Steven:

http://www.eatmoveimprove.com/2009/11/shoes-sitting-and-lower-body-dysfunctions/

Of course my favorite part of the day:

A. Power Clean 3,3,3,1,1,1 ; rest 180sec b/t sets

B1. Bar Dips 40x1 2-3 x 3; rest 90sec b/t sets

B2. Knees to Elbows 15 x 3; rest 90sec b/t sets

C. Deadlift 60% of 1RM 2 x 8; rest 45sec b/t sets

A. 95,110,125,135,145,150

B1. Rx'd

B2. Rx'd

C. Rx'd @ 170lbs

I notice my energy level is now gone. I know it's from the way I'm eating and that's fine because my life is more important than what I do in the gym. Just sucks to feel like blah all the time, I miss my crazy self. I attempted 155 on the power clean but the elbows were to slow and the hips didn't get open enough. The bar dips were easy and K2E sucked because my hands were chewed up from the Chest to bar yesterday so my hand ripped not a surprise, but all in all still easy because I could kip. Previous 1rm on the deadlift was 280 so 168 is 60%, of course I went up to 170. This part was for speed work. I felt towards the end I wanted to get lazy and let my back do the work (like I always do and end up injuring myself) but I made sure to just concentrate since Colin doesn't allow bouncing, it made it a bit easier to focus again. I'm excited for tomorrow, it's going to be tough.

24/42; 5/52

I love the gym! Sometimes I wish I could marry it. It never argues with me, makes me feel good, lets me take all my anger out on it, pushes me to try harder, and makes the sexiest human beings alive. Who wouldn't want to! Here's a good main site video and a post from Colin's blog:

http://media.crossfit.com/cf-video/CrossFit_BMAC_JasonAnalyzed.mov

http://www.CrossfitVentura.com/colinjenkinsblog/2009/11/rest-day-1.html

I must say I totally agree with what Colin says here (even though I didn't attend), I tried to put what happened into words and he said it perfect. Colin was at the Black Box this past weekend and witnessed all the drama that Robb posted about. It's sad to see HQ coming to this.

Here is my WOD:

A1. High Bar Back Squat 40x2; 4-6 x 4; rest 120sec b/t sets

A2. Chest to bar pull-ups 15 x 4; rest 120sec b/t sets

B1. AMRAP Double Unders x 3; rest 90sec b/t sets

B2. Kettlebell Swings 53lb ; 20 x 3; rest 90sec b/t sets

C. Hip Extensions 31x1; 10 x 4; rest 45sec b/t sets

A1. 80,95,105,115

A2. Completed

B1. 56, 37, 34

B2. Rx'd

C. Rx'd

For the back squat, it's the first day adding weight so Colin only wanted it easy to where I wasn't struggling on the up part. I said 115 and it was perfect. Any heavier and it would of been tension on the up. My Chest to bar suck for some reason. Might be because I was scared of going all out since I just had that biopsy. I don't know but definitely going to have to work on those. I'm very disappointed with my double unders. I haven't been able to focus for a few days so I guess this is ok. Kettlebell swings I wanted to do unbroken and I did and same with hip extensions.

I feel pretty good today. I've been sleeping a lot so I think it's helping a bit. Got in some of the meds I ordered and immediately took some (not a good idea before you workout felt like I was going to puke). I hope it starts to make a difference. Oh and one last thing, I want to say thanks to everyone without your high hopes and willing to put down what your doing to help me out I'd be a bum right now!

I was on my way back from the hospital yesterday and I felt like crap(no sleep) so I texted my roommie and asked if he'd bail on work for the rest of the day to go watch New Moon. He did and it was so worth it(for me). Brought my spirits up and he got out of work early so it benefited both of us. Thanks Tony!

Mess Up

Posted about my row WOD the other day it was 1187m not 1087m. Guess that's what you get for trying to do math when your out of breath! I'm real happy with this. This was an OPT wod and I beat all the women that posted and even some of the men:) I love to crush those egos even when your just coming back to.

23/42; 4/52

Another rest day. I guess I'll have to get used to these because I'm sure I'm going to be taking a lot once I start treatments. I'm already getting tired of veges all the time. I used to eat nothing but fruit about 5 months ago because I love it, and now having to cut it out is such a bummer. At least before I had a cheat day once or twice a week to look forward to. Now I got another 48 days. I know though even if I had the opportunity to shove that doughnut, reese's pieces, pizza, or some other type of cancer feeding frenzy down my throat I wouldn't do it because I'm not going to give them the satisfaction of staying alive in me. Yuck! I watched a video on NOVA of different stages of cancer and what the melanoma tumors look like. Talk about wanting to literally rip something out of your body because it's gross. Reminds me of some weird bug you've never seen before that lands on you, your first reaction is "ewwww" and you instantly get it off. That's what this thing looks like and how I feel but I can't do anything about it but try to kill it with food and supplements. I get so mad every time I think about it. Here I'll post the link. Mine starts at video 1 and goes down to video 6. I'm also going to post about Robbs' article today. He told me about this but I figured it was only a matter of time before he wrote about it.

http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/nova/cancer/cells.html

http://robbwolf.com/?p=976#comments

When I checked this morning he had 29 comments.....he now has 229 and it's only been a day. Personally, Robb changed my life and has the education to back him up. I would never doubt his judgement when it comes to nutrition. He's no idiot and I hope he sets his own nutrition program up because it will be awesome and it might actually be accredited:)

22/42; 3/52

Sorry I didn't write yesterday, getting stabbed in the liver 5 times kind of caused me to not really feel up to it so I'll post twice today. I really hate military hospitals. I swear all these people are idiots. I feel like I have the worst care when I'm admitted to one of these places but at least I'm used to it. At least civilians don't have to go through being a guinea pig for doctors that are "in training". I had one come in this morning and asked how my pain was. I told her it was fine and she goes on to ask ok, so you've been controlling it with the drip? I looked at her like she was from another planet. For one she woke me up at the crack of dawn(when they come wake you every 4 hrs anyways to take your vitals and temperature), then she didn't even take 1 sec to look at the name on the door that says "Miller", and last I'm not even hooked up to anything and have no IV of any kind even in my room. Seriously, these are the kind of the doctors the military puts in to take care of our men and women that are supposed to fight for this country, my dog could do a better job. Anyways, had to vent for a second because I just can't believe how ignorant some people are. HA!

Well all in all the biopsy went well. They had a CT scanner and ultrasound hooked up to make sure they stabbed me in the right spot (thank goodness). It was a bit horrible. First they numbed the outside skin and then stuck me to numb the outside of the liver. No big deal right. Well, they didn't put me out and only gave me a tiny bit of drugs because I had to be coherent enough to breathe and hold my breath as they stuck needles in to grab tissue. Talk about a bit painful. Probably could of been on no meds at all and it would of felt the same. Needless to say I was a bit sore and starving. They didn't let me eat until like 1900 at night. Talk about a grumpy crossfitter that is denied food. Oh man was I a complainer. They eventually let me eat so I stuffed my face. Probably wasn't good idea because my stomach was hurting for about 2 hrs after. Well off to another day of interesting journey at the hospital and my drive home:)

21/42;2/52

I woke up this morning and decided to do a good WOD:

Sprint Row 30sec-100%max effort

rest 2:30min x 7sets

For Total Distance

171m,175m,167m,164m,167m,171m,172m=1187m

I think I was supposed to do 8 but to late now. I did 7 and I am very satisfied with the results. First time back hard on a rower with 2 feet and my butt was on fire by the end. Felt good to breath hard again.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Naturopathy

Colin emailed me this morning to tell me he talked with Robb and they figured out a new plan for training me with everything going on. I'm interested to see what that is. Robb also emailed me and said he sat down with OPT to talk about my situation. They discussed options as far as training, nutrition, and getting some type of care outside these medical doctors that love to take their sweet time with everything(especially when it's holiday season). OPT knows a naturopath that he offered to let me talk to for a few sessions. I sat here and read his email and started to cry again for joy this time because I can't believe that no matter how competitive our community is we are all brothers and sisters. We are here to help each other until the end. I'm finally experiencing this and I hope I can one day help the lives of others as these gentlemen have for me.

On another note, I know this is probably lame but I got to stay positive and sometimes it requires you to be a little loopy and talk to yourself, HA. I was eating my breakfast this morning and I was happy as I chowed down Paleo pancakes soaked in coconut oil, eggs with coconut milk, and broccoli and I said "Cancer, your going to die."